Past Month Recap

A lot has happened over the past month or more and now that I finally have time to process things, I want to share with you guys what happened, where things are, and they are going. I want to make this straight to the point, so I’ll save the details of events to their own journals.

At the start of June, I left home to be with family because my younger sister passed away due to complications with diabetes. My family has a lot of problems that have already been made worse with Dad’s passing two years ago so this loss was devastating. I did everything I could to help with funeral services, tried to clean the house which was also home to twenty-ish cats, and supported my family the best I could. I love my family, but I was overjoyed to be back in my home, free from the chaos, clutter, flies, and stench of cat.

Three days after returning home, I was back on the road with my roommate who was moving across the country. Driving alone from one coast to the other is rather daunting  so I decided to ride along to both make the drive more manageable and have one last adventure as roommates… and what an adventure it was! That trip deserves its own journal but after six days on the road, a lovely day of being shown around, and a total of seven hours of flight with an eight-hour layover, I am finally home again.

This past month has given me a lot to think over and process. While I know it’ll probably be a while before I properly sort things out and recover, I’ve had somewhat of an epiphany. I’ve been afraid to let go of the past and face the future. I’ve denied myself so many opportunities, possibilities, and precious moments with others simply because I was afraid of losing them… I still am afraid, but I have a better understanding of that fear now. If I’m afraid, it means whatever is causing that fear is very important and I need to embrace it. Going forward, I’m going to strive to do just that. I’m giving myself some time to recover from this past month but going forward, I’ll be cutting out a lot of what I’ve been clinging to and focusing on moving forward again.

Thank you for being patient with me through these hard times. I’ve said it at least a hundred times by now but your support through all of this has meant the world and I’m eager to start creating things to share with you again.